The elimination of testosterone causes a variety of physical
and emotional effects in each person. Many of the effects are common,
although they do vary from person to person. The effects can be a
blessing to those who wanted castration yet devastating to those who don't
really want to become a eunuch.
I went without any hormones for more than two years since my castration and
can testify to the effects. However, each person is unique and your own
effects, particularly regarding changes in weight and hot flashes, may turn
out to be very different from mine. I do focus on what I myself have
experienced between the time of my castration and the day I started taking
estrogen, yet I have included the experiences which I have heard from many
others, because not everyone will have the same effects that I had, and some
will experience things which I did not.
DECREASED LIBIDO - One of the first things I noticed in the days
following my castration was the drastic decrease in my sex drive. I was
hoping for this to happen, and it happened quickly.
My sex drive did not go away entirely, but it did decrease to a weak
level. I have experienced what most eunuchs have also experienced: my
libido is under control. I went from masturbating once daily (sometimes
more) pre castration to not at all post castration.
I still have
occasional nocturnal erections at night, and less often I even have orgasms
in my sleep. About half of these are dry orgasms while the others are accompanied by only a small amount
of clear fluid. Otherwise I don't feel aroused unless I want to.
Many eunuchs also report being in complete control of their sexuality.
If I did want to get an erection I could, but it would take more
effort. I don't have erections only because I don't want them.
Eunuchs who do remain sexually active usually have sex much less often, but
report that when they do it is more special, and some of their spouses feel
the same way. Because the eunuch does not arouse so quickly, he can
take more time on the foreplay and afterglow.
INFERTILITY - One thing is certain: castration will make you infertile, and
this effect is absolutely irreversible. It is still possible to orgasm
and even ejaculate, but your body will no longer produce any sperm. Any
ejaculation that does occur will be clear and probably in smaller amounts.
The only way to reproduce after castration is to bank some sperm prior to
castration. I opted not to do this, because I do have gender issues to
deal with and I am relieved that I don't have to put a wife or any kids
through this. Both of my parents were outcasts in school, and I too
suffered from outcastism. I don't want to bring any children into this
cruel world. Since I can't reproduce the female way, I won't reproduce
FEELING CALM - Four days after my castration I was walking across downtown
Philadelphia to meet someone new, and as I walked it seemed that waiting for
traffic lights and other little annoyances did not bother me so much.
Was this an effect of castration? Six days post castration I returned
to work. This workday was unusually hectic becuase it was a Monday and
the plant had just installed some new lines but didn't yet know how to run
them smoothly. All of this happened while I still felt some pain where
the surgery was done, and yet I still felt so calm when the day was all
over. I was definintely feeling the effects of castration and most
certainly felt better all the time without testosterone. Ten days post
castration I felt as a feather floating around everywhere. I just kept
feeling better and better. For me the serenity was the strongest of the
castration effects, followed by the decrease in libido.
POST SURGERY DEPRESSION? - Many eunuchs who do in fact benefit from
castration do experience a temporary depression shortly after their
surgery. Many people go through this depression after any
surgery. Interestingly I did not experience this at all. I
did feel depressed on the fifth day after, but that was because I left Philadelphia
that day and was leaving behind several newly met friends, and I usually
experience that feeling upon returning home from any overnight
vacation. I experienced the same thing five months later when I
returned home from a trip to my relatives in Phoenix after meeting some
transgendered sisters there, and I also feel this whenever I start driving
back home from an electrolysis sessions in Dallas. These post-vacation
depressions do feel stronger since my castration, so I think the lack of
testosterone does allow more emotion to surface. I never suffered any
depression directly related to castration.
HOT FLASHES? - This definintely varies from person to person. Some
eunuchs have written about sweat dripping off of their head at random times,
while others seem to have no problem with this. I was one of the lucky
ones in spite of not taking any hormones, as I experienced nothing more than
feeling a little warm occasionally. I did lower my thermostat a few
degress that first summer. Later on I did feel cold a little more easily
as my metabolism slowed, and became more sensitive to variations in
LOSS OF PHYSICAL STRENGTH - I was not expecting this at all because I had
little upper body strength to begin with, yet I was noticably weaker after a
few months. Even before castration it often amazed me that all of my
male peers seemed to have much more strength than I, and I felt as if they
could just push me around as they wished. Now I am definitely weaker
I got into some trouble at work seven months post castration when I was
expected to do some heavy lifting and found it to be more difficult than
before, though I never should have been put in that position anyway because
of my obviously small size. Eventually I transferred out of that department
and I now work where nobody expects me to lift anything. Any heavy
lifting wears me out much more quickly than it used to, and I also have
difficulty with opening jars.
The more muscular you were before castration, the more you will lose after
castration. As testosterone levels drop, muscle mass does decrease.
DECREASED ENERGY - In addition to losing physical strength, a eunuch will
often experience a decrease in metabolism and energy. Doing heavy
lifting and other efforts do wear me out more quickly than before. I
also feel chilly more easily than before and have become more sensitive to
small changes in temperature.
WEIGHT GAIN? - The few sources of informatin about castration that I could
find indicated that eunuchs tended to put on some pounds after castration as
energy decreased and metabolism slowed. I did experience the decrease
in metabolism and energy, but my appetite seems to have decreased with
it. Consequently I have actually lost a few pounds since
castration. Before castration I used to average around 130, and I
weighed 134 at the end of 1998. But I did lose a few pounds after
castration, and now I average around 125. The amount of weight gain
will vary from person to person.
BODY HAIR - Many eunuchs have reported that their body hair became softer and
finer after castration. This is something else that varies from person
to person. I hoped for mine to decrease, but this is one effect that I
have not been fortunate with. I have noticed some decrease in body hair
density, though not as much as I had hoped for, and it has been more than two
years now. Still, I am passable as long as I shave the hairs on my
hands and wrists, as my body hair is still above the female average, but I
have seen women with more arm hair than what I have. Even those who do
experience significant thinning of body hair usually experience little or no
change in facial hair densitiy. My own facial hairs remaied as dense
and numerous as before, but they did seem to grow more slowly after
castration. Underarm and pubic hairs did not change with castration
either. I am currently getting electrolysis to lose the facial hairs,
and I hope that eventual estrogen replacement will thin out my body hairs
PHYSICAL APPERANCE - As testosterone levels drop, muscle mass either fades
away or turns into fat, and some fat redistribuion occurs. The more
muscular you were before castration, the more you will lose. I didn't
have much to lose, and I lost some anyway. My limbs do appear smoother,
and my friends in my PFLAG group tell me that my arms do appear
feminine. My hips appeared more flabby a few months after castration,
and I think that was the first purely physical effect that I noticed.
However, the body will not feminize to the same extent as if you were taking
estrogen. Bone size does not shrink, but bone density can decrease.
HEAD HAIR - I started to lose my hair when I was only 19, and this continued
unabated until my castration at age 31. Since my castration I don't see
so many hairs on the shower floor anymore, and the elimination of
testosterone has prevented further hair loss, but I have had practically no
regrowth of all that I lost before castration and will certainly need a hair
replacement system for transition. Hairs not affected by baldness have
grown thicker and longer. If you did not suffer hair loss before
castration, it is very unlikely you will ever go bald after castration unless
you take testosterone replacements.
Castration is a bad idea for anyone merely seeking to treat or prevent hair
loss because it causes so many other effects that the vast majority of men
dislike. Using Finasteride or Minoxidil can arrest most cases of MPD
without causing the effects of castration.
VOICE - Contrary to popular belief, the voice does not rise after
castration. Not even female hormones will raise the voice (although
male hormones will lower the voice), and even voice surgeries have been
mostly unsatisfactory for the male to female transsexual. Non
transgendered men seeking castration don't need to worry about their voice
because it will not change, but transsexuals and transgenderists will need to
retrain their voice to sound more feminine.
SHRINKING GENITALS? - I personally have not noticed any shrinkage of my own
genitals, but many eunuchs have reported that their penis did shrink after
castration. It seems that those who have no erections at all after
castration were most likely to notice genital shrinkage.
MENTAL EFFECTS - Toward the end of 1999 I noticed some decline in my memory
and concentration, and I also became disoriented more easily. Many
eunuchs and post-menopausal women have also reported similar effects.
Upon starting a low dose of estrogen in November 2001, my memory has improved
to what it was before castration.
HEALTH RISKS - Many eunuchs not on hormones experience decalcification or
loss of bone density. Males tend to start out with stronger bones (than
females) before castration, but once hypogonadal they can lose bone density
as any post menopausal woman. The younger a person is castrated, the
greater the risk.
Some sources cite increased risk of heart disease, stroke, and digestive
problems, but I have seen dsiagreement among different sources. While
there may be an increased incidence of such problems in eunuchs and post
menopausal women, the only thing I've seen proven without a doubt is the
increased risk of osteoporosis. Eunuchs may wish to study the issues of
post-menopausal women as they face many of the same issues.
Anyone considering castration and not planning on taking any hormones
afterwards needs to consider the possible risks of hypogonadism and determine
if the benefits of castration for them will outweigh the disadvantages.
I was aware of the risks beforehand and I determined that I wanted the impotence,
serenity, and other effects of castration badly enough to take these
chances. To date I have not had any bone density scan done because even
if I did find a problem I still would not take testosterone replacement since
I am too happy without male hormones.
UPDATE: On November 6th, 2001, with the help of a certain therapist, a doctor
in my area has now started me on a low dose of Estradiol. I still
retain the benefits of castration such as reduced stress, impotence, and
feeling calm. I felt a lot better after castration, and now I feel even
better on estrogen.
My cholesterol levels have remained at healthy levels. My blood
pressure was normal and healthy before castration, averaging 120/80, and this
decreased after castration. Now two years post castration my blood
pressure averages around 100/70. I strongly suspect that castration did
reduce my blood pressure, though I am not sure if it was a direct reaction or
if because I was emotionally antagonistic to testosterone (please do not get
castrated just to reduce high blood pressure, there are less drastic ways to
treat that). I do not smoke or drink, so I feel that I don't need to
worry too much about the other possible risks besides bone density loss.
I did start taking 1200mg Caltrate daily starting the week after my
castration. Some eunuchs perform weight bearing (not weightlifting, but
walking and running) exercises to help maintain bone density.
If there are health risks, there are also a few trade offs. Once the
testicles are removed, it is impossible to delelop testicular cancer.
Castration also decreases the risk of prostate cancer, and some men have an
orchiectomy performed to treat this cancer. The younger a person is
castrated, the lower their risk of prostate cancer. I had my orchiectomy
done at age 31, so my odds of ever getting prostate cancer are now
astronomical. Best of all, my stress levels have been reduced after I
eliminated the testosterone from my body and I think that decreases the
chances of a variety of ailments.
Curiously I did experience an increase in dental cavities the year after my
castration. I am not sure that castration had anything to do with that,
though it's possible. For now I believe that was a random fluctuation
in dental cavities which may have happened to me anyway were I not castrated.
In summary castration causes a variety of effects. For those who wish
castration many of the effects such as impotence and feeling calm can be
beneficial. If you are thinking about castration I would urge you to
consider all of the effects and whether or not you really want this for the
rest of your life. Castration is a minor procedure, but it is a
permanent one and is something you can never change your mind on. You
need to proceed with caution.
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